I love Comic Relief :) I love that for this one day a year the whole of Britain just lets itself go crazy and doesn't care about looking stupid for this one big cause, it's sort of amaaaaazing. I've been watching the live show and French and Saunders doing Mamma Mia was PRICELESS, as was James Corden's pep talk to the England football team, ahahahaha. ilhim♥ (proof of his awesome.) although the promotional videos make me cry. i'm donating extra online right now.

We had a bunch of events on at Sixth Form to raise money and it was just one of those daaaays where everyone was in a fantastic mood and acting silly :DDDD We all dressed up to raise money; my favourites were the giant condom (200% bigger!), the dudes who sewed themeselves together, my friend Joe who was BananaMan, and I'm not gonna lie, mine was fucking amazing. I wore a giant box (cut out armholes ARE HARD at 8 in the morning) and covered it in cereal packets, and had a plastic gun, and was a cereal killer :DDDDDD ahahaha IT WAS SO EPIC. There was also a sixth form gross food eating competition, with knock out rounds and countdowns and like 100 people crammed into the titchy media room, cheering while people systematically left to puke. My life! Even my mum went to work dressed up today :) She was a panda!

We had our Leavers photo yesterdayyy. It's the end of an era, and I really love like all 100+ people in my year, I've decided. They are all amazing. I'm going to miss them like fuck.

I don't know, I'm in one of those moods where I just want to hug everyone and smile and blab on and on about how amazing life can be. ALSO SOMEONE TALK TO ME ABOUT WHAT A MINDFUCK SKINS WAS LAST NIGHT, seriously WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK WAS THAT? Someone else tell me to stop liking the new Oasis song as well, ugh :(

you guys, i have to literally stay awake all night tonight, and i don't sleep well normally so you'd think that wouldn't be such a big ask, BUT IT REALLY REALLY IS. a whole night is a long time, okay! it is totally different to just like, not being able to get to sleep til 2am on a regular basis. A WHOLE NIGHT IS SO MANY HOURS. D:

basically, i am not doing this for kicks as you may think, but i am going to poland for a week! and i'm excited, because i get to go to auschwitz and krakow and all these places that i have always wanted to visit, but i am also scared, as i have a real lameoid phobia of flying. and none of my close friends are going, as my sixth form is running like four different trips this week, so they're either skiing in france or visiting people's embalmed bodies in russia, i don't know. so if i panic, no one will be there to comfort meeee D: also WHAT IF I LITERALLY CAN'T GET ON THE PLANE? i mean, what would be the outcome? i keep wondering, but i would probably just go home and cry, most likely.

this long ramble is to say that hello! i won't be here for a week, i will be freezing my ass off abroad, panicking, or off my tits on vodka. maybe a combo of all three, it's likely. i have valium to take to get me there, actually, but i have never taken it before as usually i freak out just at the sight of planes landing, so i have skirted the whole travel issue many a tiiiiime. i am slightly worried what will happen? but it will be okay. basically i will be high as a kite from the moment i step foot in london at, oh yeah, 5.30 AM. i have to be at sixth form by FOUR. WHAT IS THIS MADNESS? i will be spaced out from lack of sleep and high and panicking? this is overall a terrible idea.

so, if anyone wants to help keep me up all night, that would be really really great! keeping in mind i am alone on valentine's day and very, very bitter. send me songs, send me fic, email me! maybe just send blank things this way as it nears the early hours to make sure i'm still awake. I AM ALREADY COLD AND SLEEPY.