- I just watched the film Bent and it made me cry :( Not even at the ending which I was kind of expecting, but when the two men are standing in the yard touching without touching :'( Honestly, this was something I hadn't ever really considered before - the persecution of homosexuals during the Holocaust - and I don't know why that is. I don't knowww, it was just heartbreaking and the performances were great and ugh D: Friday nights in, seriously.

- It was the finale of Skins last night! Boo hiss, it kind of sucked, whatever, my bb Cook was amazing♥ I love him and I want him to not be sad or cry or be fucked over by everyone ever again mmkay writers? Mmkay. I love him :( He tries so hard. Idk, they just need to make him haaaappy. I also need more skins icons >:( People also need to upload all of his scenes ever to ytube, just sayin'.

- It is so weird driving everywhere! I can't believe how bad I am at parking, though. Like, it is horrific. I am ashamed of myself. But I'm getting there! I feel safe enough to drive people around so, you know, at least I'm not killing anyone. (Just yet.)

- We discussed homo-eroticism in WWI lit in class the other day, and it was wonderful. Owen's poetry remains stunning and my favourite always, beauty continues to be found in the most absurd and horrific of places. I love literature so hard♥

Right! Off to reply to emails I have failed at replying to (I am a terrible, terrible person) and to attempt to write more BBB. I love that I receive new presents from letters I received at crimbo time (oh, you!!♥_____♥). Pictures of my new reddddd hair sooooon! I hope you guys have a good weekend. Link me to something pretty/funny/shamelessly fanviddy? *bats eyelashes*

I love Comic Relief :) I love that for this one day a year the whole of Britain just lets itself go crazy and doesn't care about looking stupid for this one big cause, it's sort of amaaaaazing. I've been watching the live show and French and Saunders doing Mamma Mia was PRICELESS, as was James Corden's pep talk to the England football team, ahahahaha. ilhim♥ (proof of his awesome.) although the promotional videos make me cry. i'm donating extra online right now.

We had a bunch of events on at Sixth Form to raise money and it was just one of those daaaays where everyone was in a fantastic mood and acting silly :DDDD We all dressed up to raise money; my favourites were the giant condom (200% bigger!), the dudes who sewed themeselves together, my friend Joe who was BananaMan, and I'm not gonna lie, mine was fucking amazing. I wore a giant box (cut out armholes ARE HARD at 8 in the morning) and covered it in cereal packets, and had a plastic gun, and was a cereal killer :DDDDDD ahahaha IT WAS SO EPIC. There was also a sixth form gross food eating competition, with knock out rounds and countdowns and like 100 people crammed into the titchy media room, cheering while people systematically left to puke. My life! Even my mum went to work dressed up today :) She was a panda!

We had our Leavers photo yesterdayyy. It's the end of an era, and I really love like all 100+ people in my year, I've decided. They are all amazing. I'm going to miss them like fuck.

I don't know, I'm in one of those moods where I just want to hug everyone and smile and blab on and on about how amazing life can be. ALSO SOMEONE TALK TO ME ABOUT WHAT A MINDFUCK SKINS WAS LAST NIGHT, seriously WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK WAS THAT? Someone else tell me to stop liking the new Oasis song as well, ugh :(

you guys, i haven't been on the interwebs in like, a long while, and i have so much to *do* and so much to saaaay it's ridic. but it's late so some other time. (seriously, IT IS NOW PAST ONE AM D:)

i saw fob in cardiff last night and it was epic. patrick, YOU ARE EVERYTHING THAT IS RIGHT WITH THIS WOOOORLD. the fucking pyro and sparklers and everything♥ it was amazing. i have a p.weezy guitar pick courtesy of my concert-buddy pete, because he's awesome like that. pyro is fucking hot when you're in the third row. more later, maybe.

idk, bbb i think is probably no longer bbb and more, HAYY HOOKER!AU SUUUUP. it gives me peace of mind to think of it like that instead! i don't know. people are posting lines from their WIPs but that is like, the only one i can cope with right now and none of it makes much sense, but have a line or so under the cut. nc-17 because i'm hardcore like that. (i'm sorry patrick DDDD:) ( hooker hooker hooker )

in other news i really want to see watchmen and i am really really happy that people on my flist have been getting into skins. YESSSS. ILU SO HARD FOR THIS. can i take a moment to just *appreciate* the hot that is cook? good god. he is practically on fire, i don't even know. i thought freddie was hot from the first ep but good grief, HE IS NOTHING IN COMPARISON. WHEN HE CALLS HIMSELF COOKIE MONSTER I MAY DIE A LITTLE INSIDE. also, i have a hardcore girlcrush on emily. she is so badass in rl as well. have ridic ramblings/vids under the cut because I REALLY JUST LOVE COOK, OKAY. ( they all come to the cookie monster )

Oh, and my education thus far is done in something like eight weeks from now. EIGHT WEEKS. WHAT. THE FUCK. HEY, HEY, ANYONE, WHAT SHOULD I DO WITH MY LIFE?!!!!

I shit you not, I have *the* most epic Skins Primer in the works. There's not even any need, there's been 2 1/2 seasons and they're all up online, but I started having way too much fun compiling things and I just want you all to love it because that show is so the love of my life. So ridic and gay and hilarious and then they throw in surprise ouch >:( THEY DECIDE TO THROW OUT THE ENTIRE CAST AFTER TWO SEASONS AND I STILL LOVE IT :( My dirty affair with it is not over, basically. Let me indulggggge.

For now have this weirdass scene which came from nowhere when I was attempting to write BBB the other day. I think I probably read a fic which went along this vein of thought one time and this is my own version or something. It's probably stolen, idk. Sorry?

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Also I have downloaded a lot of awesome music today! :) The debut album from White Lies is awesome, fyi, and the OST for Angus Thongs And Full-Frontal Snogging is really good, damnit :(

i am ridiculously gutted about the decision to get a completely new cast for the next season of skins. like, no more chris? seriously? i mean, i was worried enough about monday's episode because omg, if he dies, and this makes it all the more possible D:

and uh, the season finale is only in like, two, three weeks? and that will be the last time we see them all. :( i am gonna cry my poor fangirl heart out, compile a huge lovathon Skins post, and mope my way into eternity. SKINS HOW YOU TOY WITH ME SO. D:

but on that note, uh, FORESHADOWING HI: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OTvT_ART658
"I could die and you wouldn't even know." NO, YOU WON'T CHRIS. YOU WOOOON'T. and fucking ELUVIUM is playing in the background, omg. i don't know how to deal with this.

oh my god ARE YOU KIDDING ME IT WAS SO GOOD.

uh, spoilers, fyi, if anyone hasn't seen the ep (in which case YOU SHOULD!)

Chris is my favorite anyway, because he's so hilarious and such a fuck up, but then he has this really sweet, caring side to him, and such a horrible past, and, uh. Yeah. Basically I love him, is the short and short of it. I've always said, I would totally fuck Maxxie (aka Mitch Hewer, aka Hot Like Burning), but I would date Chris, because he's adorable and amusing and I don't think I'd ever in a million years get bored.

SPEAKING OF. The whole kicked out of college thing was kind of rushed, imo, but then kind of not, because he only ever worked in Angie's class anyway. And that was because he was in love with her, so. He wasn't ever exactly A-grade. But I totally expected to hate the whole Chris/Jal thing but I LOVE IT SO MUCH I can't even express. It's so adorable, and so is she! I hated Cassie with most of my being for most of the show, except for the slap (ahahaha) and the bitch out at Jal which was way too harsh, but also amazing for the, "Wow. Hey, but, fuck you." And when it was all the little girls jumping in the swimming pool and then poor Tony I totally sadfaced. I feel so bad for him.

But, uh, basically everything that came out of Chris's mouth was gold. His speech at the end for Jal with the drawings ♥♥♥! And setting fire to the guy's tie! And his relationship with the guidance counsellor (which was helped so much by the unseen skins thing where they first met WHICH IS ALSO HILARIOUS)! And after the thing with Angie, JAL'S REACTION AND THEN HIS D: and then the twist at the end, ugh, I totally "oh my GOD"'d out loud. I want them to keep it and be together forever, if I'm honest. He totally fell for her, aw. So far I think I'm loving this series even more than the last. Although Sid's epsiode made me cry buckets. And like, the only music for it was Sigur Ros, and it was just. :( But Chris's and Sketch's episodes are still my favorites. Although the first was pretty fab with Maxxie's rampant gay and Tony's confusion and just. !!! Skins! I love you so!

Which reminds me, I need to get me some appropriate icons for these kinds of flailings, and also, I totally appreciated the opportunity to google Mitch Hewer because there are SO MANY topless pictures, ughh. He turns me into the worst kind of fangirl, I swear.

I am so freaking attracted to Mitch Hewer (aka the gay character Maxxie from Skins) it is scary. I mean, I am really very attracted to him.

On that note: I LOVED THIS WEEKS EPISODE INSANE AMOUNTS. UGHHHH GUYS STOP ITTTT PLS. I know everyone hates it since Tony got hit by the bus, it's too "dark" now, or whatever, but I think I love it even more. And tbh I was an obsessive fan first time around, so. I've been watching each episode twice a week, hahaha, once on the E4 first showing, and then on ch4, because omg, really really. It is fab. ALSO MITCH NEEDS TO DO ME YESTERDAY UGGGGH.

For christ's sake this week they had Osama! The Musical which is probably the most redick thing I HAVE EVER SEEEEEEN. on that note FFS CHRIS WHY ARE YOU SO COOL AND WHY HAVE YOU NOT ALSO DONE ME YESTERDAY UGGGGH. They actually made me feel sorry for a creepy stalker obsessive girl who sneaks into her obsession's room and mbates on his bed (which was odd to watch, guys, but still, lolz). UGH THIS FREAKING PROGRAMME. ILY SKINS, ILY. MAKE MAXXIE AND TONY MAKE OUT AGAIN THAT WAS FUNTIMES.

HERE HAVE SOME TRAILERS! THEY USE RADIOHEAD AND MUSE TO ADVERTISE UGGGHH ♥