Firstly, let me start by saying that I completely accept and even ENCOURAGE you all to defriend me due to my looooong spell of absence. You are totally, totally justified if you do. My main excuse for being so effing GONE is just...life. I know I know, lame, right? But it has been a pretty hectic few months? weeks? I don't even know how long it's been.

I have officially left school (although I'm going back in September for some extra qualifications...don't ask), had my final prom, said goodbye to friends I've been educated with since the ripe old age of THREE; I have been working full time, I have managed to get myself in a car crash (no one was hurt, except for my poor little car and my security in the driving ability of others! DRIVING ON THE WRONG SIDE OF THE ROAD IS NOT OKAY, ASSHOLES), Michael Jackson died and Panic split up what the actual hell, and my friend of 8 years moved to Canada today. And I have missed a hell of a lot on these here interwebs that I cannot apologise enough for. *makes pleady forgive-me eyes* All in all, I have decided that life is a stressful, complex thing that I most definitely am not mature enough to wrap my little mind around just yet. We should all just sit around and drink tea and watch the first season of the OC or something.

To diffuse this general depression at the somewhat random yet definite suck that life manages to petulantly throw about, let me show you some pictures of what I once was. I have been a (glorious!) redhead since roughly February, but as of today, the red hair is no more :( I am actually surprisingly upset about this. I keep double taking the mirror. ( r.i.p. badassery )
ANYWAY. To try and wheedle my way into goodbooks LJ-over, I thought I'd upload some lovely music to try to persuade you all that I'm a good person really. :D?

Minus the Bear - Get Me Naked 2: Electric Boogaloo
Contrary to what the title suggests, this song is not dumb, stupid or funny. It is in fact merely brilliant. Kind of grungey but undeniably awesome. I listened to this song constantly with my best friend driving around the country lanes where we live to and from exams and to and from magnificantly fun times that I will always treasure.

Absent Elk - Cannibals
Just a really solid, fun slice of indie pop that makes me smiiile.

Two Door Cinema Club - Hands Off My Cash, Monty
Another generally awesome song.

VV Brown - Shark in the Water
DEAR GOD I love this song. So so so so so good.

Rosi Golan feat. William Fitzsimmons - Hazy
I definitely listened to this a lot after the Grey's Anatomy season finale :') Ah hem.
Let's bypass the coolness of that admission and focus on the prettyness and cute of this lil acoustic number. It's pretty damn cute.

Also, if you didn't know, La Roux's album is literally fantastic. Gimme a nudge if you want it. I can't pick a favourite song which is very trying :(


Anyway, hello! This is me resurrected. I hope you guys are all well and jovial and listening to some fantastic songs of your own ;D
EDIT: As I posted this entry 'You Are Not Alone' came on my shuffle. It was pretty creepy, but I'm going along with it. You are not alone, flist!

Totally old meme that I have actually already completed once before, but I have started like three separate fics in the, oh, 24 hours? 48 hours? since my laptop sprung back into life. This is the crazy you drive me to, bigbang D:

Also, the variation of pairings throughout - *ahem* - should show how completely unbiased I am to my OTP. Yeahhhh.

( The One Where Patrick Is Jailbait and Pete Is Obvious(ly in love with him) )

( The One Which Is An Actual Straight Up PWP )

( The One With the Sex Doll )

( The One That Ate My Soul: The Hooker!AU of Doom )

Anyway, play with me! Whine about your BBB! Send me your WIP's and talk about how much you want to write me teacher student porn :D

Man, I hate technology. I mean, it tricks you into thinking all is well and dandy, like, "Sure, Chloe, you can download things and email people and you can search shit up on Google alllll you want!" and all the other PERFECTLY NORMAL FUNCTIONS THAT LAPTOPS ARE BUILT TO DO, and then KAPOW. Nothing! I kid you not, I had complete radio silence from this thing for like two weeks now and it sucked so hard. You cannot just keel over and die, technology, that isn't cool. There wasn't even that little light to say it was charging when it was plugged in :( I thought all my fic and songs and bookmarks and everything were gone. Then one day it just - starts up. What the hell is up with that, laptop.

Anyway, HELLOOOOO INTERNET! Man, I missed you. You know what, I can EMAIL people now! (Sai I CAN DOWNLOAD YOUR FICS AND BETA THEM NOW :'DDDDDD) I managed to download the new Young Love album! I read so much fic this afternoon, and it was mmmmmmmm good, like a full fat meal when you're really hungry. I edited the hooker!au like crazy! I toyed with new ideas! WHO AM I KIDDING I LOVE TECHNOLOGY SO HARD.

Also before the radio silence of doom, I managed to watch three gay themed films, Latter Days, Twist and Save Me. I think most people have heard of Latter Days, and I thought it was cute if cliched, and the Mormon boy was adorable. Save Me was really interesting; it's about a Christian home, with its purpose to try to "change" gay men, to see the error of their ways or whatever. I thought it was mostly really well acted, although, oh, Robert Gant, stick to TV, bb. Check out the trailer. Judith Light was absolutely amazing and it was really beautifully shot, I recommend it! Twist was something I just stumbled across, it's like a recasting of the classic Oliver Twist story, only with it's central focus on "Dodge", and Fagan's group of pickpockets are actually male hookers. It was super interesting as an idea, although I think some aspects could have been developed further, but it got really dark and kinda disturbing and I think I need to watch it again to get a better grasp of it. The trailer doesn't shed much light, but check it out if you can.

Ugh, I'm meant to be reading up on this dude Shakespeare right now, but I really want to write a super filthy PWP and download lots of music instead. Any recommendations? :DDDDD

ugh, i love the internet for allowing me to vicariously see what a catch live. THE MONTAGE THING AT THE END ARE YOU KIDDING ME :')




obv this isn't mine, credit goes to OohPwned702 on youtube, but seriously. Where can I go to on a really short flight to get over my fear of flying? So I can like, go to the US of A already.

- I just watched the film Bent and it made me cry :( Not even at the ending which I was kind of expecting, but when the two men are standing in the yard touching without touching :'( Honestly, this was something I hadn't ever really considered before - the persecution of homosexuals during the Holocaust - and I don't know why that is. I don't knowww, it was just heartbreaking and the performances were great and ugh D: Friday nights in, seriously.

- It was the finale of Skins last night! Boo hiss, it kind of sucked, whatever, my bb Cook was amazing♥ I love him and I want him to not be sad or cry or be fucked over by everyone ever again mmkay writers? Mmkay. I love him :( He tries so hard. Idk, they just need to make him haaaappy. I also need more skins icons >:( People also need to upload all of his scenes ever to ytube, just sayin'.

- It is so weird driving everywhere! I can't believe how bad I am at parking, though. Like, it is horrific. I am ashamed of myself. But I'm getting there! I feel safe enough to drive people around so, you know, at least I'm not killing anyone. (Just yet.)

- We discussed homo-eroticism in WWI lit in class the other day, and it was wonderful. Owen's poetry remains stunning and my favourite always, beauty continues to be found in the most absurd and horrific of places. I love literature so hard♥

Right! Off to reply to emails I have failed at replying to (I am a terrible, terrible person) and to attempt to write more BBB. I love that I receive new presents from letters I received at crimbo time (oh, you!!♥_____♥). Pictures of my new reddddd hair sooooon! I hope you guys have a good weekend. Link me to something pretty/funny/shamelessly fanviddy? *bats eyelashes*

Today is awesome as the two weeks of sun that we've had means that it's officially spring, there's the new Gaslight Anthem video for 'Great Expectations' on my TV right now, it is Skins and THE TWINSSS episode tonight, and I passed my driving test today!!

Oh man, I was so freaking nervous. Like, it is really hard to have good clutch control when your *foot* is shaking! I crapped up the hill start which was the first thing the instructor asked me to do (rolling down the hill is not okay) but I was so obviously nervous and told her, and I guess she decided it was minor-worthy. I AM SUPERSTOKED AT THIS NEW FOUND FREEDOM. I have driven around all day singing along to my ipod in the sun and life is great. ♥

Off to read some great fic and work out on my step machine, because I need to lose like, 2 stone for this summer :(

STILL SUPER STOKED, THOUGH

You know those days when you're kind of unwell and you have a day at home trying to catch up on assignments and like, your health, and then you open your BBB fic and think "Damn, I really should finish this," and then you write weird Panic fic because you have not tried that shit out in so fucking long? Yeah, today was one of those days. This is so weird.

( well i'm rubber, you're glue )

I love Comic Relief :) I love that for this one day a year the whole of Britain just lets itself go crazy and doesn't care about looking stupid for this one big cause, it's sort of amaaaaazing. I've been watching the live show and French and Saunders doing Mamma Mia was PRICELESS, as was James Corden's pep talk to the England football team, ahahahaha. ilhim♥ (proof of his awesome.) although the promotional videos make me cry. i'm donating extra online right now.

We had a bunch of events on at Sixth Form to raise money and it was just one of those daaaays where everyone was in a fantastic mood and acting silly :DDDD We all dressed up to raise money; my favourites were the giant condom (200% bigger!), the dudes who sewed themeselves together, my friend Joe who was BananaMan, and I'm not gonna lie, mine was fucking amazing. I wore a giant box (cut out armholes ARE HARD at 8 in the morning) and covered it in cereal packets, and had a plastic gun, and was a cereal killer :DDDDDD ahahaha IT WAS SO EPIC. There was also a sixth form gross food eating competition, with knock out rounds and countdowns and like 100 people crammed into the titchy media room, cheering while people systematically left to puke. My life! Even my mum went to work dressed up today :) She was a panda!

We had our Leavers photo yesterdayyy. It's the end of an era, and I really love like all 100+ people in my year, I've decided. They are all amazing. I'm going to miss them like fuck.

I don't know, I'm in one of those moods where I just want to hug everyone and smile and blab on and on about how amazing life can be. ALSO SOMEONE TALK TO ME ABOUT WHAT A MINDFUCK SKINS WAS LAST NIGHT, seriously WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK WAS THAT? Someone else tell me to stop liking the new Oasis song as well, ugh :(

you guys, i haven't been on the interwebs in like, a long while, and i have so much to *do* and so much to saaaay it's ridic. but it's late so some other time. (seriously, IT IS NOW PAST ONE AM D:)

i saw fob in cardiff last night and it was epic. patrick, YOU ARE EVERYTHING THAT IS RIGHT WITH THIS WOOOORLD. the fucking pyro and sparklers and everything♥ it was amazing. i have a p.weezy guitar pick courtesy of my concert-buddy pete, because he's awesome like that. pyro is fucking hot when you're in the third row. more later, maybe.

idk, bbb i think is probably no longer bbb and more, HAYY HOOKER!AU SUUUUP. it gives me peace of mind to think of it like that instead! i don't know. people are posting lines from their WIPs but that is like, the only one i can cope with right now and none of it makes much sense, but have a line or so under the cut. nc-17 because i'm hardcore like that. (i'm sorry patrick DDDD:) ( hooker hooker hooker )

in other news i really want to see watchmen and i am really really happy that people on my flist have been getting into skins. YESSSS. ILU SO HARD FOR THIS. can i take a moment to just *appreciate* the hot that is cook? good god. he is practically on fire, i don't even know. i thought freddie was hot from the first ep but good grief, HE IS NOTHING IN COMPARISON. WHEN HE CALLS HIMSELF COOKIE MONSTER I MAY DIE A LITTLE INSIDE. also, i have a hardcore girlcrush on emily. she is so badass in rl as well. have ridic ramblings/vids under the cut because I REALLY JUST LOVE COOK, OKAY. ( they all come to the cookie monster )

Oh, and my education thus far is done in something like eight weeks from now. EIGHT WEEKS. WHAT. THE FUCK. HEY, HEY, ANYONE, WHAT SHOULD I DO WITH MY LIFE?!!!!

I shit you not, I have *the* most epic Skins Primer in the works. There's not even any need, there's been 2 1/2 seasons and they're all up online, but I started having way too much fun compiling things and I just want you all to love it because that show is so the love of my life. So ridic and gay and hilarious and then they throw in surprise ouch >:( THEY DECIDE TO THROW OUT THE ENTIRE CAST AFTER TWO SEASONS AND I STILL LOVE IT :( My dirty affair with it is not over, basically. Let me indulggggge.

For now have this weirdass scene which came from nowhere when I was attempting to write BBB the other day. I think I probably read a fic which went along this vein of thought one time and this is my own version or something. It's probably stolen, idk. Sorry?

( blahblahblah )

Also I have downloaded a lot of awesome music today! :) The debut album from White Lies is awesome, fyi, and the OST for Angus Thongs And Full-Frontal Snogging is really good, damnit :(